A poem for you
It's me looking at the wall thinking so deep
It's me who have cried herself just to fall asleep
It's me who misses you a lot
It's me who always wishing for you to come back
I want to unloved you but I don't how
Because all I know is i want you now
I want to meet someone who is better than you
But I love it better to hear your 'i love you too'
I wish I could turn back time
I wish we never end up saying goodbye
I wish I could be like her
No, I wish i could be better than her
Here I am looking at your beautiful smile
You're waiting for her, walking on the long aisle
That should be me said my heart
It's all your fault! my mind replied
I wiped my tears but it keeps on falling
I want to end this life but my heart keeps on beating
I faked my smiles, but you never notice
Please be at my side, I wanna feel your presence
I'm jealous of how you smile while talking to her
i'm jealous of how she made you happier
I'm jealous because I wasn't the one
I'm jealous of someone who is once mine
So many what if's inside my head
What if you still love, but you were just afraid?
What if you were just lying?
What if all of this are just pretending?
What if I would kill myself?
Would you come to my grave?
